When I'm too tired to do anything but I know I can't drop the basic maintenance, lest I make the pit to climb out of even deeper, I tell myself I have one job, and only one.
Don't let it get worse.
Things can stay the same, things can even slightly decay naturally. But I cannot directly let things become worse, directly or indirectly.
If the trash is full, it can keep rotting and stinking, but I can't put anything in which would overflow. Throw out the old bag first.
Sometimes I make a game of it, and find energy in knowing I set the challenge for myself, however small. Sometimes it's easier to find energy out of spite at the decay of the world than to think about the effort it takes to improve it. It's not a healthy state to be in for long, but it gets me past the hump.
That's good enough.
- Rew
Nightly Notes
Contrary to the topic, I'm feeling great. I recently learned to distinguish when I'm about to have a fantastic nap from an awful one. No idea what the root cause is, but it's extra refreshing to know I'm going to have a good nap, and then actually have it. So few experiences are that reliable.
If only I could get this energy in the mornings, too.
Odd day for writing, I had multiple things I wanted to write about and wasn't expecting to land on this one. The spread of topics I write about is certainly not the spread I would have guessed at the start.
I think that's good, somehow.
- Rew