Perpetual Rewiring

Slogging

On the awful days where doing anything feels like mud, and even the normal motivational tricks have failed, my last resort is alternating rest and work on quick intervals.

I can read one chapter of the book I've been engrossed in, but then I have to start the paperwork I've been putting off. I can take a 20 minute nap, but then I have to writeup all the things I haven't written up. I can zone out to music, but only if I putter around and clean up while I do.

There's essentially no floor on how much work has to get done per alternation. It's not possible to add one when energy is that low. I trust that I'll do enough of it on principle to feel okay switching to the next reward.

It gets me to 40% productivity at most, realistically 25%. It's only a tactic for days where I can't wait it out for more energy. Half the time gets lost on all the breaks, and the rest on context switching, distraction, and general lack of motivation.

Sometimes things have to get done. So they do.

I trust myself to do that much, when I have to.

- Rew

Nightly Notes

Today was an experience. Lot's to do, lot's that was done. I'm glad I ended up here. I'm quite proud of what I've accomplished, really.

I'm sick of it, too. I made this life for myself, and now I see how I spend it. Found motivation to do all the things I don't have time to be doing. Things I think are worth investing much time in long term, but why is the motivation to do them only here when the short term comes knocking?

All I wanted 24 hours ago was another day to work on them. I did get started. I think it went well?

It barely feels real, now.

- Rew